The only successful thing I have completed is watching my korean vcds. 64 disk... 64 hours.... Finally!! Over!!
Other than that; everything else seems depressing this holiday. Just had the feeling that results is out and I went to check it and it appears different from what I had expected. I guess I am about to have another sleepless night; probably thinking what could have gone wrong. I am practically having sleepless nights ever since holidays started and I have yet found the cause of it.
What could be the cause of my sleepless nights?
1. Thinking about the cause of my sleepless nights?
2. Thinking about the KL trip ???? (possible! due to my unwillingness to be stuck there with no return ticket)
3. Having too much energy left.... (maybe suddenly not having much to do as compared to having to go to school)
4. Thinking what I should do during my holidays to be more productive?
I realized that whenever I am packing my room, the time I take just gets longer and longer each time even though there are lesser things. So strange. Could there be the possibility that I am trying to make my room so empty and that I am looking at stuff that I should not be throwing; but still want to throw?
The first words that always appears in my mind is always 'i'm bored'. I guess this is a very strange holiday; haven't been able to fall asleep anytime before 2am and when i start to do something alittle productive I get so sleepy. This annoying feeling is so annoying me. Tried to make sushi and other stuff today but it did not turn out that well and I am feeling extremely pissed about it.
I seriously need to abandon myself in some other part of the world. Had been watching korean drama ( a pretty old one) about a half vietnamese half korean lady and her korean husband and family, and in two days, I watched like 21 hours of it ( all thanks to my normal television routine which has been cut off). Recall watching some parts of it on television some time back, but watching the show in full now, makes me really enjoy the show although the people in the show is always crying.... such a sad show...
Sigh sigh sigh.... went for one and a half hours of badminton on sunday and my body is completely screwed. I am like so freaking unhealthy ever since the start of the second semester in foundation year that my whole body felt like it was joined with some lousy scotch tape. But it was SO SO SO enjoyable.. hehe...
It was rather fun to neglect everything that is concerning school for one nice weekend. (Although this is technically the second one.) On the nice friday when I had to drag myself off bed when it started to drizzle; it was a total mistake. By the time I was ready and due to leave home, the rain was so heavy that I was dumbfounded. I went out, made my way out the ground floor gate, decided to turn back and put on my nice long jacket to prevent my clothes from getting wet.
The second time I left home was a huge mistake. It started to rain heavily, and just a couple of steps out onto the streets I was actually walking in a pool of water that was at least 30cm high. I was so certain that the water was so cloudy to the extend I could not even see where my toes were. Making my way through that approximate one hundred fifty metres took me more than ten full minutes!
That was not the best. What was amazing was that while I stood at the traffic light waiting for my turn to cross; a dear lorry had to drive at a speed that is sufficient to get water way above my height; I was practically soaked. What I did managed to do was to turn sideways which was not too wise as I got to found out later that water had managed to enter my bag that was said to be waterproof. (Perhaps it is just waterproof; not flood proof.)
Saturday was beyond exciting. Went out to orchard (finally) and bought a couple to things that cost those two pieces of cards more than two hundred dollars. I really did not mean it; the sale was just too tempting.
Yesterday I had my auntie from Germany come to visit as my dad had just arrive back in Singapore, and so I did nothing except to waste time until after dinner and arriving home to a nice blacked out house. Only after the blackout issue was resolved, I decided I had to go prepare for my presentation.
The funniest thing was that I had a nightmare; and it was about me getting up late for my presentation today. I totally freaked out; but when I did finally open my eyes, it was just a minute before my alarm was due to ring. Lucky me; I decided to just lie in bed for an additional ten minutes. Presentation obviously did not turn out well; I had my eyes glued to the words in front of me but I did not get any questions during the end, so maybe there is still a chance of getting full marks? Lets see what happens on friday.
Well, it has been quite some time since i stopped blogging. I have actually been clicking on my blog and just looking at it and asking myself when would the day come when I will start to type again. I guess today is that day. I happened to be online and saw something that had pulled the trigger; which has caused me to wonder if it is time i started blogging for the uncountable number of time. Yes,it one of those sad moments that I never liked.
I have to admit to myself that I do dislike changes. I liked friends to remain totally insane like when I first met them; I liked my things to remain as it is, untouched and new; I liked my surroundings to maintain like what I have always recalled. Then again, who can stand still and allow every other thing to progress and move on; standing rooted at the spot where perhaps I was years back. Maybe, this is a signal for me to follow others and move on; letting go of the memories that I wished would remain forever.
It is not as though I have not changed a single tiny little bit. I broke my curse, one of my greatest fear when I passed my driving just a week ago. Till today, I never quite understood how that was possible. It might had been due to the trip to the temple where both my friend and one of my driving instructor's advised, or it might had been the rain that brought me luck. Who knows?
On the other hand, some strange characteristics of mine never seem to change. I just have no idea that I treat people differently. I had no idea that people were afraid of me. But I still do not think that I am to be blamed because these are the people who are cunning and have evil intentions. I have seen a handful of them; I have been made used of, been fooled and deceived to the extend that I would never label such people as friends.
Someday, I will be able to catch up with changes; just wait and see.
